Essential Importance of Taking Time Out in the Lone Space

Submitted by Open on Tue, 11/05/2013 - 07:25


The unquantifiable importance of solitude.
From time to time, I feel the need to take a well earned break away from our work here at Openhand. Not that I feel pressurised by my life, not at all. Even though it is frequently full on, I find it immensely rewarding and yet now and then, there's the undeniable heart-felt pull to spend time alone. I'm blessed to have a camper van, so as the flow allows, I find myself taking off into nature and the countryside. For me there is nothing more pleasurable than finding some quiet, secluded spot, parking up and simply hanging out…

The importance of Solitude

I couldn't begin to over estimate the importance of solitude in my life as a catalyst for accelerating the path and clearing unwanted inner debris. When I do get the time to take off, I find the first few hours can be a touch demanding. If you don't fill the space with 'entertainment', I find the mind needs a little time for 'detox cold turkey'. Even if there's no longer the ego to contend with, there's still the need to clear the inner landscape and expand into the emptiness. When that happens, I find I can sit for hours simply watching life unfold before me.

My favourite would be to park up on some secluded cliffs in Cornwall, like in the photo at the top - a treasured place of many an Arthurian legend near the mystical town of "Tintagel" (can you see the Dragon's head and his wing? Awesome!). I distinctly recall many magical hours there, simply watching the seagulls performing for me a merry wind swept soliloquy or the waves rolling powerfully in off the ocean or dropping naked into the icy waterfall at the mystical St Nectern's Glen (as in the photo left).

Amazing things happen when you spend time on your own. First there's all the mental chatter to deal with: "I should be doing this", "why aren't I doing that?" "how can I waste my time like this?" There's the nagging doubt that you're missing out on something or you really ought to be doing something more responsible and productive. Once you drop through these layers and peel them away, the profoundness of awesomely ordinary simplicity tends to strike one like a thunderbolt to the third eye. How could you pass such simple beauty by and pay so little attention?

Deeper into presence

The deeper we drop into this sense of pure presence, the more connected with life we truly feel. From this place of the empty void, the flow arises more strongly and one can be completely overwhelmed by the simplest of things. A recent evening comes to mind where it rained the whole night through and strong winds buffeted my camper backwards and forwards. How wonderful! Rocked like a baby, I was enthralled for hours.

And as I awoke, it was the turn of the crows to be the aerial acrobats. It seems one had mastered hovering on the breeze like the famous kestrel. At first I thought it could have been one, until that is a kestrel flew up in front of it and hovered right in front of my camper. Wow, what a spectacle. Anyone whose seen the Gateway 2 section of our film5GATEWAYS will know the significance.

It's these apparently simple things that become more prominent and speak so loudly when the mind and consciousness are still. To me, the crow always represents inner distortions. The aerial display was clearly revealing that the path to truth is by continually watching ones own tightness and tension. It's only then that freedom and liberation unfold their inner wings. As if to confirm, synchronistically as I write this, my ipod has started playing an old favourite "Free" (which I'll share with you below). Priceless!

Excuses?

"Okay" you might say "it's alright for you Open, but I have a family to look after and a busy job, I don't have the freedom to get away like that". Sorry to burst the bubble, but these are just excuses! Mostly because we don't believe others can look after themselves for a few hours and are sometimes meant to. Or else we're afraid of exactly what might happen in the void of stillness: "Will I have to look deeply at my own reflection? What will I see?" Even if it's just for a few hours, there is nothing more penetrating and cleansing than isolation and absolute stillness.

Speaking of which, the crows outside my window are calling. They're clearly saying I've spent enough time finger tapping and it's time to fly. It's felt good sharing this emptiness with you. I trust it inspires and encourages you to push the boundaries on the lone space a little more. When you do, me and the kestrel will catch up with you, hovering, hanging on the breeze in the space between the spaces.

Till soon.
Open
(on behalf of Openhand)
And here's that video: "Free is all you gotta be..."

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Thank you!

thank you for the article on solitude.Now that I am not working I feel drawn to going away for a few days. I am about an hour a way from Tintagel and St Nectern's Glen and feel drawn to going back. also to Merlin's cave. I feel an adventure awaits......

Beautiful, that evoked my week of hiking and solitude recently in that very area. Periodic time for self and silence has always been a must for me, space to allow the "silt to settle" and enjoy the peace that follows :)

Thanks for sharing,
Graeme

Open, Thank you for this share. It's a very timely and inspiring piece for me since I recently decided to take a break from the continual mental stimulation and chatter of social media interaction that was taking up too much of my time. I was feeling the overwhelm of too much manic outflow without the balance of soft and soothing inflow. At first I experienced some jittery withdrawal tics and twitches, but I've gradually settled into the welcome, peaceful rejuvenation of silence, solitude, and Presence.

"Solitude is the place of purification." Martin Buber

Great article. It's so so important. I witness in myself and others the affects of not taking this time - increasing identification with the busy matrix lifestyle, increasing inner chatter, and increasing interference from opposing consciousness.

I might add that, yes, although it is hard when you have a family and a busy life, i have found that free alone time in nature is even more needed, so if anything those could be motivations rather than excuses.

Thanks for another great article!
Rich

So many Synchronistic messages I am beginning to be more aware of lately :)and this article strikes the centre point perfectly, Just last night I was chatting with a friend as she was seeking or needing advice or just needed a friend to chat with, I listened to her and one of her fears was 'Being Alone' I provided my understanding of the importance of this from what I have learned from 'Openhand' .....I will share this article with her , Thank-you Open you are touching so many many people. <3

As life expands into more busyness this is exactly the message that is needed.
Sometimes when it doesn't feel possible to actually 'leave the premises', I will find a quiet corner, put on my headphones and take a journey with an Openhand meditation. That can be enough to inspire me to get organized, get my hiking boots on and head out the door.... leaving all of the things 'to do' behind for just a little awhile.
It is only me that makes excuses to myself! How crazy is that ??
Thanks Open - may you be blessed and refreshed on your sojourn.
Much love, Jan

Thank you Open. Right on time and well recieved. I read recently, 'you should sit in meditation for twenty minutes every day - unless you're too busy and then you should sit for an hour' Blessings
Heather

Spending time in nature by myself is just amazing. I lose all track of time, cleaning my mind of, like you said Open, debris that does not need to be there. This aloud s me to remain in the moment and chariest this beautiful path we walk. While I write this there is a storm going on outside and this little bird is inside the lilac tree outside my window just pure beauty.

again Thank you Openhand for here
love & gratitude

Hi Everyone - have you managed to steal yourself away from holiday festivities? smiley

I felt to draw attention to this article today... Essential Importance of Taking Time Out in the Lone Space

The mind gets so easily filled with life's agendas that it's essential to get some lone space and strip away what isn't aligned or real for you. That's what I'm doing right now - taking some time on the Windswept Wilderness of Dartmoor in South West England. But I hasten to add, maybe you simply can't get away - that's okay. Nevertheless, do work to create some free space on your own for a few hours. It'll help cleanse the mind and allow your authentic creativity to come through.

I remember the great story of Eileen Caddy when she established the great retreat centre Findhorn in Scotland, which has now become a worldwide phenomenon. She had no space of her own, and so used to meditate in the outside toilet in the garden. It was the only space she could get, but it proved essential openness for what she went onto create...
Findhorn Foundation - Spiritual community, Learning centre, Ecovillage

So what will you be doing to create some lone space today, and what treasures might it inspire?

In loving support

Open heart

Open, this is a lovely invitation to all of us, particularly these festive days! Thank you. smiley And Dartmoor sounds magical and expansive!

Solitude and finding solace in aloneness has been my biggest ally for as long as I can remember.  Taking refuge in nature, be it near the ocean or deep in the woods, withdrawing from the hustle and bustle of everyday life has been an elixir of love.  Such an empowering invitation to create shifts in our life, the shift of choosing aloneness as a way to uncover oneness and express ones soul! The inquiry is: How does aloneness feel in the arms of the Earth and the Skies?

At the same time I have encountered phases in life when accessing nature within a big city made it very difficult for me to occupy ‘another’ more natural space. Or there are times when you are with others in a social/public place or in the middle of a very busy road/neighbourhood/office etc and taking time ‘alone’ feels like it is impossible! So the inquiry then transforms into: What does aloneness mean now?

My favourite poet David Whyte so eloquently says:

To be alone is not necessarily to be absent from the company of others, the radical step is to let ourselves alone, to cease the berating voice that is constantly trying to interpret and force the story from too small and too complicated a perspective. Even in company, a sense of imminent aloneness is a quality that can be cultivated.

Right now we may live in a city where the sounds, smells, sights feel disturbing and invasive. We may not have access to nature in the form of a park or even a bush. We may not even be able to travel in a nearby oasis. Then the inquiry invites us to ask: How do I tap into sweet aloneness here and now? Being present with the sky or the moon or a patch of grass or soil has been a way for me. Or even when that’s not accessible dropping into the silence already present within my body often allows for a sweet expansion to what really matters.

And oftentimes of course solitude is imposed – felt as if it’s not chosen - and in effect, is tinged by anxiety and loneliness. We can then inquire: How can loneliness transform into the sweetness of aloneness? Im fascinated by how a shift here can emerge because particularly these days a lot of people can feel very lonely for many reasons. Sometimes what can turn loneliness to aloneness is to look around and feel what one appreciates in this moment and tap into it.

I feel ‘to be alone’ is indeed a fascinating journey, a dance of the soul! It is to shed layers upon layers of conditioning, to be committed to let the story go and to explore uknowness and immense rawness. And it is a labour of self-love and love for all. So I am off to dance aloneness first in the gym – yes in the gym! - then deep in the woods and finally on the conscious dance floor with other souls dancing to rhythms of solitude and solidarity.

May your day/s be a blessing of solitude and solidarity.smiley  

 

Wow - Iove this....

To be alone is not necessarily to be absent from the company of others, the radical step is to let ourselves alone, to cease the berating voice that is constantly trying to interpret and force the story from too small and too complicated a perspective. Even in company, a sense of imminent aloneness is a quality that can be cultivated.

When I go out alone, I always love to dance on the edge of life - weaving between the countryside, the towns and the matrix. After my evening on Dartmoor, I'm now "alone" in Totnes. Recharging my computer and drinking an organic coffee - seeing signs and synchronicity everywhere - the stag in the form of a cloud over Sharp Tor, and dragons and serpents - just waiting for the story to connect. It reminds me how lucky one is to be able to appreciate this - but then it's not luck at all really!!! It's simply commitment and persistence....

This just came on in the cafe...
 

Hi Aspasia and Open, this is a fantastic exploration. Solitude has been my biggest ally too . Nowadays i feel to take time out evenings into the nearby hill watching the sunset and the birds and connecting with the joy inside. The joy which wants absolutely nothing else but to keep feeling it. It is invaluable for me take time away from the muddled energy of family life such that when i come back i can find the aloneness inside and be with it even with myriads of distraction. I love the poem.

Vimal <3

Vimal, the way you connect with the joy inside by watching the sunset sounds SO beautiful that it makes me feel nostalgic of the amazing Greek sunsets at the beach! Thanks for the image - a gift welcomed in a VERY cold, rainy and windy evening here in the UK :) 

I adore what you say very wisely: "The joy which wants absolutely nothing else but to keep feeling it." No expectations but the rawness of the feeling. 

Yes, im with you in that creating aloneness away reinforces our capacity to find/'remember'/recollect aloneness amidst "myriads of distractions" - finding stillness in the midst of turbulence, the art of living indeed! 

Blessings my friend and thank you for the wisdom. 

Hi Aspasia and Open. Thank you for such a wonderful community. It took me a while to find out what I have is the biggest gift in the world. living so close to the nature.

Open says:"It reminds me how lucky one is to be able to appreciate this - but then it's not luck at all really!!! It's simply commitment and persistence...."

I am so blessed for having a small garden for myself. when I go out I look for a treasure collecting them and placing them in the house. This is another way of being with nature at home.

And when I am back in the capital city with no blue sky then this is the time of challenge. The challenges are to not forget how far I went which to be honest is not easy. Most of the time I stay home and do nothing 
 
So I try my best not to go there but sometimes there is no choice. last year My husband and I made a tiny space in my parent's house for few plants. It helped them to take time out and talk to their plants sometimes. Make me happy :)

Now anytime I go there and feel overwhelm with the things happening in this city I make time to just watering them cleaning them and playing with the soil. It is not comparable with what I have in my own house but it is enough to help me go through the rest of the day with grey sky. 

I always love to take time out and try to create some painting from trees which I love specially in autumn. I am very happy to find Openhand. It is my time to start something extraordinary in my life and I think I took the first step.

Freedom Of Wind

 

Hi Blue Petrichor,

Its lovely to read your sharing and the way you create lone time in Nature. Bringing nature into your parents home in the city speaks to me of a sense of commitment to love, beauty and to sharing it. I am inspired! I have two Peace Lillies in my room with beautiful big green leaves. Sometimes I tend to talk to them, mostly after meditation. It feels like they meditate with me. I know my cat China does!

Your painting is simply remarkable! I love it! Thank you for sharing it! I really would love to know how it felt to paint it. It gives me a sense rootedness, feminine beauty, vulnerability and immense power. The word and exprerience of Earthiness comes to mind and heart.

A big welcome and much love.

Hi Blue Petrichor,

A very warm welcome to the shores of Openhand heart

Your painting is deeply moving - absolutely fantastic. I clearly see the multidimensional self in it.

Great work - lovely to have you in the community.

Open smiley

When I was a kid I hated going to school it was not a nice place to be in anyway. I decided to find a friend to talk to about everything happening in my mind. I Always have few trees which I was trying to take care of them on the to school. I even had one which I only could see it from a very tiny window in the rest room of the school.

I am happy when you said the experience of Earthiness comes to mind and heart.  

I dont usually plan anything before painting but they always appear somehow. During painting this one I was actually thinking about how good it is to be free so, I can say it was a feeling of joy and beauty :)

Thank you 

Today I found solace not in a tree but in the eyes of a wounded wood pigeon. There were many inner and outer synchronicities that led me to this beautiful bird who stood on the pavement of a road in town just waiting. Waiting for something, for someone? Until the moment I saw the pigeon, I couldn't clearly understand why the flow had taken me to town today, although that was not 'the plan'!  There was blood in the pigeon's body and s/he had lost his/her tail. As soon as I saw him/her I stopped the car and picked him/her up. I always have a carrier with me in my car for injured wildlife who I then take to expert friends for rehabilitation.

The pigeon positioned her/his body as close to me as possible in the carrier, which I had put on the passenger's seat, looking at me with her/his expressive eyes. S/he felt trusting ... we talked ... it felt very loving.

S/he had lost her tail; my sacroiliac muscles had been painful.

S/he was waiting for something/someone, standing still, in pain; I was waiting for a moment of directive alignment, partially disconnected, sad for everything that is not real, everything that is violent.

S/he had blood in her body and a limp; I was feeling exhausted in trying to navigate the paradox of form and formlessness.

In the hair of the woman you painted Blue Petrichor I see bird's wings...I see a flow...I see a reaching up while being rooted in the groundness of the Earth. I see freedom of spirit in a wood pigeon's little body.

Love and transition.

There's a lot going on in the field at the moment! Plenty of you are reporting many of the 19 Classic Symptoms of the Shift. Remember also that it's utterly essential - vital - you take time away from everything, even if it's only half a day or a day. If you can relax and just let go of any trials and tribulations, it'll greatly help not to get conditioned by the intensity. Personally I've had a busy time of late, so after posting this, I'm taking a day out, just to sit and be.

Synchronistically this awesome time lapse video came to me of the Atacama Desert - and it just took me right there. Maybe you don't have too much 'downtime' at the moment, but I'm sure you can spare just 5 minutes for this. I'm sure it'll do you the world of good. Stop for a while, breathe, relax, unwind, expand... (tip - be sure to put it on widescreen and use your headphones!)...

The Openhand work program has finished for another year - for those not in the know, our course program runs like a year in an educational establishment, from September to July. August is a month of replenishment and deepening. This time the flow has called me into my 'cave'. I just love the idea of heading off into the wilderness and staying beyond the ties of the matrix to some cave somewhere, just as the mystics and the sadhus have done for centuries.

The Universe has decided this time for me to create my 'cave' in my room. So I've cleared away any unnecessary clutter, added some poignant sacredness to my altar, stocked up on sage and begun last night with a moving meditation ceremony, calling in the elders and those who support in the ether. I'll be fasting and meditating until I've achieved what is necessary. I felt a divinely sacred connection with the swami Sri Yukteswar, who dropped in to join me for a while from some higher dimensional 'cave' somewhere, which was a shear delight.

I find these personal retreats essential to prepare for new stages in the Shift and the new year that kicks off in September. At this point we're also entering the 'lions gate', which for some as yet unknown reason seems to have particular significance this year.

I will be tuning into the web once in the mornings and once in the evenings. I find that the Openhand web work is a natural extension of the deep inner space, so providing I contain it, then it won't detract from the depth of my 'cave'. Maybe you're also inspired to take some time out in retreat? Feel free to tune in with me for whatever unfolds from this experience. I can tell you it's already a deep pleasure.

Here's a sample of a new piece of meditation music I've been working with to get you in the mood...

Hi Open,

I am also about to set off tomorrow to a cave somewhere in the forest myself to just sit in meditation for at least a week, after a little nudge from you last week Slightly Smiling. The past weeks have been quite rough for me, so I am a little anxious about what might be arising there, while I don’t have the normal distractions to dampen things or anyone to pick me up when I completely fall apart. I am intermittent fasting at the moment, with just lunch and dinner, and right now that feels enough in combination with the lone space, but who knows once I have started I might feel a pull to take it further to only one meal a day and fasting otherwise.

I am going to go offline in my cave, but I will be tuning into Openhand through the ether and will probably share about my experiences once I resurface!

I love the meditation music by the way!

Heart

Hi Marije,

It feels to me like the timing is right for you. You're ready.
Be prepared for some tough experiences and resistances in the first couple of days. But keep challenging identification with whatever comes up. Work to allow the experience to be what it is - pure, without loading or energising....

"it feels like this, it doesn't define who I am, and it doesn't own me".

There with you in spirit

Open HeartPraying Emoji

I'm about 30 hours into my fast now. I went through a couple of hours where the mind was playing some shannanigans for a while, but that's subsided now. So I left my 'cave' for a short walk in the countryside. It's fascinating the watch. I feel extremely light and peaceful, but the body isn't processing much light yet, at least not for exercise, and so it's floppy and weak - amusing to watch though!

Open Praying Emoji

I'm well into day 2 of my 'cave' experience, at home here on Dartmoor. In fact my heart longs for some distant cave somewhere. But for now, it will have to suffice in my imagination!

Yesterday evening brought me into quite a challenging detox. Although I've lived only plant based and mostly organic for some 15 years, nevetheless, we still pick up plenty of toxin from the environment - especially heavy metals. So yesterday I took some wormwood to begin cleansing parasites from the gut, and betonite clay, which is deisgned to remove any compacted food waste (see my detox fast for getting rid of muccoid plaque). Since I don't have much of that at all, if any, the bentonite seemed to start drawing toxin from the brain, because my head was very painful and achy last night. So my feeling is to switch to zeolite, which is a volcanic powder and extremely effective at removing heavy metals - such as the Aluminium oxides from chemtrails.

Right now I'm feeling extremely relaxed and other worldly. There's an expansive sense of lightness. However the body is feeling pretty depleted. I'm waiting next for prana to infuse it more fully. So that will be the ongoing inquiry.

It's feeling to be highly beneficial. I find I can still do a degree of internet work, but that's greatly contained - with a clear boundary. And with that, I'll close!

Wishing you all well out there in your 'cave' somewhere

Open HeartPraying Emoji

I'm now well into day 3 of my 'cave' fasting retreat. I can feel energy returning to the body, a mild influx of pranic energy, but this is being greatly offset by the deep cleansing from the zeolite that I took yesterday. Zeolite removes heavy metals, and as I awoke this morning, it felt like my body had been poisoned, I guess as any heavy metals were releasing and flooding through the system. So all I really feel to do is lie down and let it flow.

Sending you all well wishes

Open HeartPraying Emoji

During my day 4 in the 'cave', I underwent a deep purging. The zeolite brought out some heavy metals for sure, as different parts of my body ached deeply, including my head. But that's subsiding now. I'm taking it easy and allowing recovery to commence. Fasting can be a deep cleansing process on all levels.

Wishing you well out there

Open HeartPraying Emoji

 

Today we've moved into what is termed in astrological and spiritual cicles as the "Lion's Gate". Essentially this is where the sun moves into the constellation Leo, from the constellation of cancer. Whilst the sun was in the constellation of cancer, it blocked out the star Sirius. Now as the sun moves into Leo, Sirius re-emerges. The ancients believe the influx of light from Sirius opens the "Lions Gate" that can create shifts in consciousness. I would say that is likely to be mostly true if you're a star soul from Sirius. Otherwise the impact might be subtle. The best way to test these things is in meditation - opening an internal space and allowing the energies to shift.

Personally I have been getting a fair does of Lion synchronicity building up to this, so it will be intriguing to see what the effect might be.

Wishing you all well

Open HeartPraying Emoji

 

Dear Open ,

I must be from Sirius because I feel like I have been whacked out of alignment in the last few days . To add to the very disorienting time ,the 16 hour fasting window is so hard! I am unable to sleep and I am feeling deep RAGE going through me. I have had volcanic eruptions at most family members and in the rest of the time have been feeling completely out of sorts. I am listening to Solfeggio frequencies , meditating best I can and also going for long walks . Today in my condo we had a Kabir ( Sufi saint ) session and after singing a hymn I felt somewhat better . Deep frustration is bubbling out of me and karmic processing is at a high ! 

I am writing this just so that other people experiencing this know I'm feeling as crappy 😄. 

Feeling very much like a lioness on rampage . I am feeling burning up and down my spine and in meditation am shaking so hard I feel I might break something 😄

Lots of love to everyone through the ether. I feel like crawling Into a cave and riding this one out ! 

Megha

 

I wasn't planning to be online this week during my  personal silent retreat,  but here I am peeping onto the openhand web site. I'm at the end my second day alone in a cottage in the woods with a rhythm of 2 hours sitting in meditation, half an hour break for a cup of tea and some yoga or movement, and taking one mostly raw meal a day.  As I expected these days have been very challenging in different ways, one of which of course is boredom. Perhaps the biggest challenge so far has been that of expectations, expectation that something should be happening, that pain or karma should be popping up, that I should be experiencing some breakthroughs, etc. It is like I am sitting there just waiting for that, like I have put a carrot dangling in front of me to chase, but without the carrot it all seems pointless, like a waste of time. I know that the expectations are not really helpful, but I find it so hard to just sit there without any expectation of what might well happen. Probably my overactive mind trying to fill things in and getting restless with the sense of purposelessness.... 

Related to the expectations is a tendency to beat myself up in the process and become rigid with myself, so as to 'increase my chances of 'success'. Such as I should completely be fasting, because surely that will have a bigger impact. So it becomes a very fine line to walk between not becoming too rigid and for example letting one mostly raw meal a day be ok, and allowing my ego to come in with things under the excuse of not having to be too rigid. Even coming online here took quite a contemplation and I am still not sure if it was just my ego coming to look for a bit of encouragement in the process. 

The other challenge I am facing is the pain in my knees from sitting. The first day it was quite ok and I was even surprised that I managed to sit for 2 hours without unfolding my legs, but by now my knees get too painful in already less than an hour. I have been sitting through the pain for quite a bit already, but at some point I really have to unfold them and then it still takes quite a while before the pain subsides.

Megha, with you through the ether dear! It sounds like you don't need lone time for things to kick off! I also of course had expectations about the height of the Lion's gate today, but I have to say it left me disappointed, because I haven't noticed anything special. So maybe I am not from Sirius or otherwise not yet sensitive enough to feel it. 

Retreating back into my cave now and will see if I can make it offline to the other side or not (part of me is now already judging myself for 'messing up' and coming to the Openhand website, but that could well be my rigid ego too).

In reply to by Marye

I am feeling a little better today so can reply without ranting 😄. 

Firstly in your case since the mind is the challenge it will of course put you through hurdles before you can get past it into feeling . That's what it sounds like to me. And I was definitely hoping you peek out of your face too 😄

I completed another 16 hour fast today morning . And it definitely puts a spin on things when one resolves to stay with the sensation. The rumble in the belly ,the weird sensations in the top of the head. I also made it an entire day without biting anyone's head off ,so I am Patting myself on the back 😄.

For me it is right now about surrendering again and again to the feelings coursing through me without needing to know the why of them . There are too fast and thick to me to be able to formulate a story though mind tries very hard 😄. Allowing ,softening and observing these are way harder for me when there isn't food to distract me. 

Thanks Open for the empathy. I may not be able to head anywhere ,but I am finding small pockets of time and space for myself . And that seems quite lovely for now . Today I watched the clouds flow overhead . And just felt at peace . 

Lots of love to you both ! 

Megha

In reply to by Megha

Dear Megha,
thank you for your stunning message about your feelings during fasting. You describe your emotions so vividly that I can feel very well into you. And I admire you for your courage in writing so openly about your feelings.
So far, when I have really fasted 16:8, a panic suddenly appeared in me and I have jumped at something to eat every time. I didn't want to feel what was hidden there.
You encouraged me to fast more seriously. Even if uncomfortable feelings emerge. Courage to face these feelings. I do not yet know where it all leads. It will be right. Anyway, I will be able to fast now. Because I want these feelings to finally have room, to finally be there. 
I often think of you and feel connected to you.
A lot of love for you and strength for your way.

Dagmar Heart

In reply to by Dagmar

Dear Dagmar ,

So much love to you my gentle but strong friend. I am so glad to know my ranting helped somebody find the courage to fast. Currently I am managing 4-5 days a week of 14-16 hour fasting . I wouldn't say that the discomfort has become better but it's just as you put it ,more room for the discomfort within me . That means I start with the knowledge it is going to take some doing but that it is okay ,every single day. It also means that I am slowly but surely slowing down. I have to . Also there seems to be many parts of my day or routine that are seeming pointless. I am letting go of them and instead making much more time for reflection ,yoga and gentle walks in nature . 

Internally ,best as I can describe it ,stuff is breaking down. Walls are breaking down within me ,that's what it feels like. And weird stuff is happening .   I was quoted in a small article and somehow an opportunity to talk to someone on TV about Climate Change and its effect on physical health may be coming up. 

I have found my voice . There are opportunities coming up everywhere to talk,write about stuff that means something to me especially climate change . It's strange and wonderful ! 

The next step is going toward a 24 hour fast . Now that will be interesting I think. 

Lots of love to you Dagmar and hugs via the ether ! ❤️💕❤️

Megha 

 

In reply to by Marye

So here I am again with an update at the end of day 3 alone in my forest cave, as I tuned in anyway to see if there were any responses. Open and Megha, thanks for your supportive feedback! Just rest assured Open that my main distractor is my mind, so even while sitting for 2 hours straight there is still enough distraction Slightly Smiling

Last night I woke up twice in the midst of interesting dreams, and managed to jot them down half sleeping. Both of the dreams took place in Malawi, like the dream the night before, which I don't remember much of. In the first dream I just bought some small green car at a company called 'Partners & Partners' (for some reason I remembered this particular detail) that day and had parked my new car at a shopping mall to find it had disappeared/been stolen when I came back not much later. In the second dream I was with a group of people cycling and because it was warm I had my red jacket over my arm or steering wheel. When we arrived at our destination I realised that I had lost my red jacket and with that my wallet and housekeys that were in there. In both dreams I noticed that despite the circumstances I remained quite calm about it. So the underlying thread here seems to be about Malawi and loosing things....

When I sat down for my first stretch today, I explored a deep longing for home and not wanting to be here. I imagined and tuned into what home would feel like and it felt very soft, sweet, light, peaceful and serene. There was a sense of innocence and vulnerability about it. However, I could also feel that in this world there is little room for this and that it can be dangerous to connect to it, that there is a high chance of getting punished. So it is safer to disconnect from it and become hardened like the world around me. However, I discovered that when I connect to this place of softness/sense of home when sitting in meditation, I could easily sit for hours on end without efforting or needing to get anything out of it and even the pain in my knees subsided in that place! A beautiful exploration that changed the outlook of the week for the better, despite still plenty of challenging feelings to explore too!

The following came to me while sitting in this place of softness:

Feeling the deep waters of my soul.

Feeling the heart of everything through my being.

Feeling the longing for my eternal home through my veins.

Feeling the love for the beauty of the universe.

Feeling me. 

To be continued....

In reply to by Marye

Hi Marije - seems like you're having a deeply productive time - lots coming up and lots moving.

That you discovered 'home' as an embodied sense feels like a major breakthrough to me. Something you can carry with you always.

Keys are always significant, especially loosing them or dropping them temporarily. It would suggest that destiny was thwarted, at least for a while. Keys representing the keys to your path. Or getting ambushed and misdirected in some way. That theme Africa comes up once more - again, probably worth exploring. At least what does the energy represent? And partners stands out quite strong. Know that you're always an associate with Openhand!

Wishing you well in your continued endeavours.

Open HeartPraying Emoji

In reply to by Marye

I wasnt planning to show up here again until I finish my personal retreat, but today has been a particularly tough day, so I thought sharing here might help the processing. I was actually already halfway through writing my message on my phone, when I managed to press a wrong button and loose what I had written, which further triggered feelings of the topic of this post: resentment.

Lots of things have been bubbling up this week, but one of the main feelings on the surface has been that of resentment for all the times in my life that I didn't listen to my inner voice, but rather opted for a fear based 'safe' alternative, to the point that I am angry with myself for doing so and feel like I have let myself down. For example, at least 2 years ago if not longer, I felt it was getting time for a move away from the Netherlands, yet 2 years down the line I am still stuck here and feel like I have wasted 2 years of my life. I can rationalize that in the end it doesn't really matter and that for some reason my path was meant to be this way, but underneath the surface there is a deep feeling of resentment for not listening to the inner pull. To the point that it feels by now there is no more use in moving, because I have already spoilt the opportunities anyway. And again rationally I know that things will reshape even if I do move after all, but still the feeling of resentment remains. 

I keep on going back and forth between on the one hand giving notice for the rent of my apartment starting 1 October as soon as I get back from my retreat and get rid of most of my belongings, without knowing where I will go from there, and on the other hand finding reasons why I should rather take it easy and perhaps first travel around for a bit and have a sense of direction before I take that decision. If I am really honest, which feels quite scary too, then to avoid any future resentment it would probably be best to go with the first option....

Heart

P.S. I am currently in a cottage in a forested area that feels very private and secluded, yet there are other cottages around behind the trees. Unfortunately, the trees don't stop noises, which is how I have been learning how many noisy electric gardening tools, such as lawn mowers, grass edge cutters, chain saws, leaf blowers, exist and how some people seem to have an obsessive compulsive disorder about them. At first, I was quite proud of myself that I was able to sit peacefully in the midst of the noise, but somehow today on the neighbouring plot it became a bit too excessive, I mean how many hours do you really have to spend blowing leaves around and mowing the lawn, when you already did so yesterday (peeping through the bushes it all looked already extremely manicured)? I wonder in what way this might have manifested in relation to the feelings of resentment.

 

 

In reply to by Marye

Hi Marije,

Yes, sometimes we have to take several bites at the cherry before the full fruit is embodied.

And this can lead to self judgment at why you didn't bite all in the first time around.

But you can't stop the Universe from creating. And you probably had to feel exactly what you're feeling now, hence having manifested it. Sometimes there are things to learn from the old reality right up to the closing point. From my perspective having witnessed your journey these last few years, you've made huge progress and transformation of beingness. So you haven't 'spoiled opportunities' and everything has brought you to this moment.

I witness frequently that 'windows' open or corridors of opportunity. I wrote about them in the book 5GATEWAYS. If you miss a cycle, then after a while (which could be a couple of years) new circumstances configure to present essentially the same challenge/opportunity for powerful change - a gateway. I'd say that's where you're at right now. Do you really not have the underlying directive on where to go? And so what if you just went with the strongest feeling and took a risk? Maybe it would challenge the mind? Maybe it has to! The gateways are not there to be made easy. Or else consciousness would not grow, it would not forge.

"How many hours do they have to spend blowing the lawn?" Once you know you've fully let go, and it still occurs, now you know it's time to move. I wonder how much they blow the lawns in Africa?

Sending much love

Open HeartPraying Emoji

In reply to by Marye

 

Hi Marije,

I can reflect back to you that, you are probably well in the flow feeling resentment. I wonder how else it would be synchronistic to what I feel which is exactly the same. I woke up this morning feeling quite pent up with negative emotions and resentment for having made a mistake even while knowing that I'm not listening to the soul, but the controlling thoughts in the mind. Even when I clearly know its going to negatively impact my field. I believe sometimes it can take several times to chose the higher choice and when we increasingly do that, then that becomes our reality.
I can feel your commitment to the path which is reflecting mine.

Vimal

 

In reply to by Marye

Dear all,

I have meanwhile resurfaced from my ‘cave’, after 9 days in silence by myself in a cottage in the woods. What an absolutely enlightening and challenging experience at the same time it has been! It is hard to capture the depth of the ups and downs during the days in a few words here, so in addition to what I already shared before I will just share a few things that come to mind right now.

First of all, I would like to thank all of you who checked in with my posts here and for the responses, it really helped me through some of the difficult moments to tune into the Openhand website and occasionally share some of what was going on!

Furthermore, I was quite surprised how easy the fasting of just one raw meal at midday of just some fruits or veggies and dried fruits and nuts (with some occasional lentil crackers that weren’t raw) has been. There were only few moments that I really experienced ‘hunger’ and I felt that I had enough energy all this time. I have to say that as soon as I got back into the ‘real’ world, I could immediately notice a craving for denser foods just to dampen all the energetic turbulence of the 3D reality and I was quite shocked when I weighed myself upon return how many kgs I lost in just 9 days!

The days were filled with a rollercoaster mix of difficult moments alternating with beautiful moments of peace and clarity, as I shared before, I managed connect with a serene sense of feeling at home within myself at the beginning of the week that made the sitting quite enjoyable whenever I was able to tune into it (during the difficult moments it was hard to reconnect with this place). And I keep on being baffled by how quickly agony and serenity can flip sides without necessarily any prior notice or as a result of consciously working into the agony. Like one night I had great difficulty falling asleep, while my mind was going around in circles on something and my body tensed up because of it. The whole night I tried so many things to feel into it, to relax into it, but to no avail. When I abruptly woke up in the morning after just a few hours of sleep from the alarm I set to put the garbage bins outside that day, I felt absolutely depressed and with a strong tightness in my chest. This kept lingering on the whole morning until at some point I somehow managed to find a entry into whatever was going on, which felt like karma. Once I was fully in it, it probably didn’t take more than 10-15 minutes for the whole thing to dissipate, after which I had moved from absolute agony to calmness, which always perplexes my mind a bit (‘where did these feelings suddenly go? They can’t have just disappeared like that!’) and the sense of relief can be quite amazing.

There was also an inquiry about ‘rigidity’/self-discipline and the fine line between not becoming too rigid with myself with regards to for example the fasting and sitting periods, but at the same time not letting the ego hijack that as an excuse to become too loose with myself and give into usual patterns of distraction. I have a tendency to easily be hard on and beat myself up for not being self-disciplined enough, so for example when I ‘binged’ one evening with a few dry lentil crackers, that is immediately a reason to feel like a loser/failure in my endeavours and that by that point the whole purpose of the retreat has completely failed (which my ego can then easily hijack as an excuse to engage in more of the same, as I have already ‘failed’ anyway). And not being fully off the internet throughout the days was another reason to feel inadequate. In other words, I have a disproportionate focus on the areas where I could do better, rather than to focus on the many things I have actually achieved during those days (yes, the glass is always half empty!), such as just one raw meal a day and sitting in meditation for extensive periods in a row. I realized that too rigid self-discipline can actually become controlling and thus obstructing the flow of what naturally wants to happen, whereas when you loosen up on the self-discipline there is a risk of giving the ego an excuse to run its usual distortions. In other words, a very fine thread to walk!

You might wonder, so what did you now take away from these 9 days? Well, that is difficult to just summarize, but perhaps I can share a few points:

1) To keep consciously connecting with and embodying the sense of home and the energy of that, which I newly discovered.

2) To unravel my apartment and belongings in my country of birth in the near future, to create room for a new, yet unknown, destination on the horizon.

3) To remain a sense of fluidity and not get too fixated on a particular pathway.

 

I can definitely recommend such a period of total solitude somewhere in nature to everyone, but be prepared to face some of your demons!

I will leave you with this album that Youtube had synchronistically awaiting for me when I returned home! Maybe a new destination in the wild is calling!

In reply to by Marye

Hey Marije - congratulations to you. You seized the moment and put yourself out on a limb. It's the only way if we want to go really deep. And clearly you did just that. Following which, the alchemcy will always strengthen and illuminate a new pathway forwards.

Thanks for sharing the album too - deeply moving.

Let's see what now unfolds!

Open HeartPraying Emoji

Hi Marije,

Greetings - nice that you tuned in. When you sit like this, all the machinations of ego will come up. And stresses and strains in the body too. It's no problem not to be fully fasting. Just that the process will take a degree longer - so be patient with yourself, and accept what comes up just as it is. Whatever arises will be right for you at this point. And I'd say sitting for 2 hrs is quite an advance - most would struggle to sit for half an hour without distraction. So do keep going, do keep digging in, and it will all be worthwhile Heart

Hi Megha - we're right there with you dear. Yes intermittant fasting will bring stuff up for sure. Because the layers of the bodymind are not so placated by the density of food. And planetary alignments will then impact too, if you're sensitive in the body. Again, be patient with yourself and use the lion energy to push through. Stability will return. And if you can withdraw for a couple of days, that would be good. Big bundle of love your way. Heart

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It's day 5 for me fasting in my 'cave'. It's been a powerful process thus far. Some deeply embedded stuff from childhood came up, programmed into layers of the body from high intensity sport at an early age. Rowing 6 days a week at the age of 12 might not be the best for the formative body! The pain in my back and shoulders at times was so extreme, I couldn't lie down or sleep. This is the nature of deep fasting and inquiry, where the soul is fully embodying. However, by the completion of the fourth day, with the help of a friendly massage, it all subsided, and I was left in a serene place, where I could sit for hours just looking out into the garden, watching the birds and the trees and the sky. A short walk down a country lane was simply divine.

What prompted me to begin this fast was breaking my front tooth eating corn on the cob last Sunday. Of course that wouldn't nornally happen, but this particular tooth had been knocked out in a karate session some 20 years ago. Funnily enough, I'd been thinking about getting it replaced - how the Universe works for us!

It brought up another subject that's been close to my heart for some considerable time - that is breatharianism, where you stop eating completely and live purely on prana. I believe the energy finds it's way from the 4th density body into the endocrine system in the brain and so replenishes the body from there. As the purging subsided, I could feel this process kicking off for me. Right now, I have no desire to eat, nor even to drink, I could readily go on like this. I know it would be blissful. HOWEVER, what I've also found is that it's quite hard to engage with the outer world. Even writing this short piece on the internet is quite an effort. I feel very removed from it all, and the idea of travelling around the world, in planes, trains and hotels to give workshops, would be extremely challenging. So after some contemplation (and a degree of sadness), I decided to leave my cave and begin eating again, but gently, perhaps a smoothie to begin with and see how that goes.

I have to head into town now to see about getting my tooth fixed - that's going to be a journey and a half!
But with the help of the odd metaphysical 'dragon' I'm sure it will all work out just fine.

Sending love to you all out there.

Open HeartPraying Emoji

You'll be pleased to know that in the Openhand family there was a birth, approaching the Lion's Gate, for Alex and Maria, who've both been plenty involved in Openhand gatherings in recent times. Their son is called Michael. Do feel free to send some well wishes on such an auspicious occaision. Apparently he was concieved on 11:11!....

In reply to by Open

Alex and Maria,

The Sun EmojiCongratulations to you both!!The Sun EmojiBaby Michael seems quite aware, as he's already looking up and taking in his parents!

In reply to by Open

Wow, glad I did tune in again to find this wonderful news! So happy to know that one of our workshop participants in Bruges has meanwhile made his appearance into this world! Wishing all three of you well during this precious time of getting to know each other better! Heart

Dear Open, Eric and Marije, 

Thank you so much for your blessings to Michael, Maria and I. We feel indeed blessed to have Michael join us, and we are so in love with him! We also feel very honoured to have the support and kind wishes from the Openhand community.

Yeah Eric, he is very aware of us and looks with intense curiosity! 
I have to share this song with you from my favourite Lion King - it's the circle of life, and it moves us all! 
 

Hi Alex, Maria and Michael 

What wonderfull news this is! Enjoy this big pink cloud the three of you are living on, the shining hearts and the timeless surrender in the essence of life. Lots of Love.

Alex,

Wow how amazing that you shared that! Both of my kids especially my 4 year old son absolutely LOVE that song, especially the very first part - and sing it ALL. THE.  TIME...

AND, my extended family is on our first day of vacation today. This picture was taken earlier this afternoon of the newest addition to the Circle, my niece - and I made a meme out of the picture, adding some words to it just a few hours ago....

Lion

I literally had just looked up the meaning only a few minutes before logging on here... they translate to:

”Here comes a lion, father
Oh yes it's a lion.” 

🦁😝☀️ 

And, when I clicked your shared video link, I totally forgot, but my phone was connected via Bluetooth to a small speaker that was providing the vacation soundtrack for the whole family - so the song itself was blasted in full glory in a magical moment with a bright sun gently setting over three generations of family playing together in the pool. 

It was spellbinding! Thank you !!

Dear Alex, Maria and Michael

 

My heartfelt congrats and wishes for the beautiful story that is unfolding for you. I found it fascinating that Michael was conceived at 11:11. Simply meant to happen. I hope the whole universe is celebrating for the love. May your journey be blessed

Much love 

Vimal ❤️

 

Oh, how beautiful! I just read the wonderful news of Michael's birth.
From the bottom of my heart I send my congratulations to the three of you - Michael, Alex and Maria -

Lots of love
Dagmar

 

Hi Open, Eric, Marije, Apollonius, Sam, Vimal and Dagmar, 

I wanted to thank you all for your warm and heartfelt wishes! It's very appreciated Heart

Michael is our little miracle, and we're enjoying getting to know him a little better every moment - while at the same time getting to know ourselves better as well. He might 'just' be a little baby, but he's also our greatest teacher. Powerful stuff! 

Sending lots of love to you all Heart

Hi Apolonius, Sam,  Vimal and Dagmar, 

 

I also wanted to personally thank you for your beautiful wishes and blessings  to Michael.  It means a lot! 

Eric-  wow,  don't you love pure syncronistic magic? Amazing! Such an incentive to be in the flow!! 

 

With much love to all, 

Alexandros